Death by Candy Corn

9/16/10

HUGE DISAPPOINTING FEW WEEKS…several minor setbacks!   Last weekend I was sick with a cold, just a normal run of the mill stuffy nose blah feeling.   I haven’t been sick since before I was pregnant with my daughter so I suppose I was about due.  I caught the little bug from her which is not surprising considering I am regularly covered in her baby goo along with most of my clothes.  Oddly enough being sick made me day dream for a moment and say “awww fall” even though it was 105 degrees outside.   My workout record for this weekend was zero, just like the weekend before.   I feel like I’m losing my momentum and will to workout.  Where did the motivation go!?!   I still want it, but I don’t want to work at it!?  I was doing so well and now I feel like it takes all my energy to get out of bed in the mornings and stay awake 15 consecutive hours, hell for that matter an hour!  I’m completely exhausted and the bags under my eyes are weighing me down.  I need sleep!! 

9/23/10

Though not much has changed since my writing the other day I most definitely have some things to say.  First off I made the mistake of walking down the Halloween candy isle while en route to the checkout to buy diapers.   While in my little paradise of sugar I saw my all time favorite season specific treat…candy corn.  Oh how I love those yellow, orange and white candies that melt in your mouth in creamy perfection!  Needless to say I bought one bag of corn and one bag of the pumpkins.   The corn lasted a good 4 days and the pumpkins I took to work.  This is not a good idea, every time I walked to the printer I grabbed one…really, I mean come on a little self control goes a long way but  when you are snacking in such a casual way how can you possibly be aware that you yourself have turned into a pumpkin?!  You can’t, so I advise against this candy keeping practice.  Quick confession: I bought 2 more bags and one is gone, the other bag is sitting next to a ¼ a bag of cinnamon chips!!  As most women, near my time of the month about  a week before I eat everything and once that’s gone, I eat everything else and try not to get my hand too close to my mouth.  This might actually explain the 588 pieces of candy corn I ate last week.   

I bought a dress last weekend for a wedding that I need to be perfectly slim for, it looked good, no bloating allowed though!   I could even stand to lose an lb.  On this same note I don’t like my dress, I’m having major buyers remorse which is fine, I just need to find  a new one!  When I went in I was thinking black, just above the knee, sleek, sophisticated and sexy.  What I bought was purple, 6 inches above the knee and young.  I got excited that it was in my price range and let me tell you, there is not a lot out there under a $100, it was madness.  Same for a baby dress, retailers are crazy if they think I’m going to down that much money on a dress that will be worn once.  Well in our case twice because she’ll be wearing it for her birthday, but still!!   Thank goodness my oh so talented mother is whipping up a little black dress for my little darling!   So in short here, I need to focus and remotivate…how?!  I don’t know…I’m open for suggestions.  Staring endlessly at Victoria Secret Magazines tends to help, which is easy when they send you one every day.  Speaking of VS magazines, they did help me revamp my hair a little, I saw a girl with the prettiest hair…as always…and so I dyed it and gave it a little trim, most of my hair ventures turn out to be happy little accidents.  I’m quite pleased, but I would like to add some highlights when my mom comes down for Bradley’s birthday…hint hint